When it comes to food, I usually find it VERY hard to resist. I have a love affair with food. And the problem here, as I'm sure I mentioned somewhere before, is that I MUST eat to live.. I guess, really, the problem is that sometimes I live to eat.. And I feel it's pretty safe to say that I tend to eat to bury issues I don't want to deal with.. And now that the holiday season is in full swing, there are SO many foods that I just LOVE to eat!
For me, there is something sweet that I associate with each holiday: Valentine's Day - conversation heart candies (soft, not rock hard), Easter - jelly beans, 4th of July - chips and dips and other picnic-finger-food goodness, Halloween - candy corn/pumpkins (and really anything else from the kids' candy haul), Thanksgiving and Christmas - big family dinners.. seconds included.. and dessert.. with seconds.. Okay, so it's not all sweet stuff, but Holy Bulging Belly!
I keep trying to set "limits" for myself - No candy, or at least limit it to just one or two pieces. Smaller portion sizes. VEGGIES and FRUITS, the 'Real' stuff, not the covered-in-creamy-goodness holiday stuff. And then something will set me off... and I'll eat, and eat, and eat.. A little of this, a little of that, maybe a little more of that. Then, after stuffing myself with all things un-healthy, I am miserable and vow to Never do that again! Only to do it again.. and again.. *sigh*
I really, Really need to figure SOMETHING out here...
You would think that my uncle having a major heart attack, or my cousin passing away, or my other cousin and my aunt developing (and beating) cancer, or my grandmother's long battle with health issues, or any number of other examples I could list would give me the motivation and drive to Really change.. But that "change" only lasts for a little while. I've got to do something though. I want to feel better, healthier, when I look at myself in the mirror. I want to be proud of the person I see.. and right now I'm not.
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