My Stash..

The weekend has come to a close, and, after a week home with a sick birthday boy, I will finally be returning to work in the morning..

My week at home consisted of a lot of cuddling, homework and housework.. and my stash..  Yes, I admit it.  I've got a not-so-secret secret stash of not-good-for-me munchies.  The good news is that it's gone now, the bad news is that I ate it all..  My problem with food is simply that I like to eat.  And I like to eat lots of different types of foods; I'm not too picky, and I'm pretty open to trying new foods.  Unlike other "addictions," a person HAS to eat.  You don't have to have alcohol or tobacco to survive (thought I'm sure some may argue the point..).  I have to keep eating.. I just need to eat the right things more often than just the occasional meal.

I'm pretty sure I turn to food for deeper reasons than just because I like the taste, and maybe if I really dug deep I'd find it easier to stop myself..  I know better, most of us do I suppose.  I did the WeightWatchers thing, and I've read many articles about nutrition, got recipes for healthier eating.  I know what I should be doing.. I just don't commit to doing it for longer than a few weeks at best.  I find myself eating the "wrong" foods and get upset with my lack of self control, only to find myself EATING MORE because I'm mad!  My will power leaves much to be desired.  I do sooooo well, drop a handful of pounds.. and then I don't care anymore, gain most of that handful back.. and then, start over. 

I do exercise - I've become a ZUMBA-addict of sorts.  I've been known to break out in dance when I hear a song on the radio (Side note - do NOT zumba after consuming adult beverages.  Very bad idea.), and it is VERY difficult to stay in my chair at work when I hear one of our songs..  What kills me though, is that I'll go to class and get a Great workout.. then come home and eat Cheetos!  "Don't Buy Them!" you say?  Well, I say it to myself.. and I don't buy them for a while.. but, then I do.  I spent three hours yesterday morning shakin' it with about 75 other crazy zumba dancers - raising money for the American Heart Association.  I am so impressed with myself for making it the full three hours!  My body still aches in such a good way.  But, since that three hours of massive calorie burning, I've eaten some Valentine candy hearts, some Jalapeno Cheetos, and a few Cherry Cordials.  WHY?!?  *sigh*

As I said though, the good news is that the stash is gone..  With much effort on my part, it will not be restocked.