I don't like to pretend..

I'm worried about my boy.  I'm sad for my boy.  I'm afraid I've failed my boy.

I have a gamer.  At 10 1/2 years of age, he'd prefer electronic over any other mode of entertainment if given the choice.  His daddy's a gamer..  He loves his daddy.  But, games aren't his dad's main focus.  I want more for my boy than electronic entertainment.  I want him to play outside, hang out with friends, get into 10 yr old boy mischief..  I want him to enjoy all life has to offer.

I feel as though I've come up short as his mother.  My overbearing, over-protective ways may have "stunted" his imaginative growth.  It breaks my heart to see his brother and sister play with the friend that came to play with HIM and all he can do is sit on the porch and stare.  It hurts to see him on the outside.. and know he doesn't really want to join in the game.

     "Have fun!"
     "I don't like what they're playing."
     "Find something you do like.  Use your imagination.  Pretend you're a monster scaling a mountain."
     "I don't like to pretend." (with a sullen scowl)

I'm worried that it's too late.. that there's too much "fun" lost through his younger years and now he doesn't know how to just Have Fun.  I'm scared that I stopped him too many times when he was littler, that I hushed him too much, that I didn't play With him enough because I was too busy with other things.. too busy for my first born child..  too busy to interact and teach him that life is full of fun.

I need a rewind button on life, or at least a pause button.  I need time to show him how fun his days can be.. if he'd only use a little imagination.  I need to interact with my boy, laugh with my boy, imagine the possibilities with my boy.